Katie Price has revealed how her kids Junior and Princess issued her a warning before speaking on camera in her new bombshell documentary, where they opened up about how her drug use impacted their childhoods.

The former glamour model shares the highs and lows of her chaotic personal life in Sky series Nothing To Hide. The documentary covers her life in the spotlight, her drug use, the impact on her family, her romances and much more.

In one poignant moment, her kids Princess and Junior cry on camera as they said they were left feeling ‘lonely and unloved’ when Katie ‘could not look after them’ because she was on drugs.

Kids’ warning

During an appearance on this This Morning today, Katie said she never knew how much her children suffered during her breakdown that saw her take drugs to numb the pain.

She said son Junior warned her before talking to the cameras that he and Princess would only appear in her documentary if they were brutally honest about what they endured.

“I told them to speak from their heart,” Katie said. “Junior said after [the interview] he broke down, as did Princess.” Katie said she was unaware of how difficult things were for them at the time because of her own mental health.

“[It was] awful … They are amazing. And when they done the interview … They said: ‘Mum if we’re going to do this, we’re going to be brutally honest … and I said: ‘I want you to speak from your heart.’ And Junior said: ‘I proper broke down’ and Princess said: ‘So did I’ and I was like ‘Why?’ …

“I never knew because obviously I wanted to kill myself and I did try … That period of my life, I don’t think people realise when I said when I said I had a breakdown, I wanted to die, didn’t want to be here.

“And so as much as I thought I was being a mum, I wasn’t. I was vacant. For young kids like that wanting their mum. I was trying to be the perfect mum and obviously I wasn’t. It kills me I put them through that.

“Obviously we’ve come through the other end and they’re like: ‘We’ve got our mum back’ but what confused them is that I was such an amazing mum, had the breakdown, didn’t have the mum that they needed and wanted.

“I wasn’t mentally there to be able to do it. And it kills me that I put them through that … The kids knowing I wasn’t right … I put all my family through it … it’s awful but it’s real life. It can happen to anyone.”

Speaking to Ben Shephard and Cat Deeley she said: “It’s so weird to watch your life back. It’s like a movie but it’s my life. I always regard myself as being completely honest anyway.

“This is a insight into someone who has been thrown into it and guided through it. You’ve seen my ups and downs, and there have been some ups and downs! No one can take away from me how ambitious I am. I speak about everything and that’s got me in trouble sometimes. I’ve never been manufactured – what you see is what you get.”

Gareth regret

In a huge moment in the documentary, Katie talks about her fling with Gareth Gates, taking his virginity when she was pregnant with her son Harvey. She later sold her story to a newspaper after being hurt by him denying their fling.

Katie said she was surprised to hear he’d agreed to take part in filming. She said: “A lot of people said no, which is fine. Gareth said yes – I was like ‘are you kidding me?’ I’ve not seen or spoken to Gareth since back then. Imagine going back 26 years and we were really into each other, and then he ghosted me.

“I never knew until 26 years later what happened. There’s so many regrets in my life that I wish I didn’t do. I wish I never did the story on Gareth. I have hurt people along the way but I can’t change what I did – I can only apologise for some of those behaviours.”

Family’s Lee ban

Katie also referenced her new marriage to Lee Andrews, where she insisted he is not helping himself. She told him to come off socials and take a break but he defied her suggestion.

“I know a lot that other people don’t. It looks so messy out there. It’s not really fair on me because it doesn’t look good on me. It’s become such a gimmicky joke now that no one believes it’s a marriage now,” she said.

“My family want nothing to do with him. I want my family to meet him but they won’t for now, they’re protecting me.” She also explained to Lee how men have been the “downfall of her life” and that is why her family are so protective of her.

Mum’s hospital struggle

Katie also sent a message to her mum Amy, who is currently in hospital, promising to visit her soon. Amy, 73, has battled idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis (IPF) – a progressive and terminal lung condition.

Amy made it to the premiere of Katie’s documentary but is back in hospital again. Speaking on stage just a few days ago, she said: “She only got out of hospital five days ago and she’s been in there for weeks. And the fact you’re here looking gorgeous.”

When she was on Good Morning Britain recently, Katie gave another shout out to her mum, who is in hospital at the time too. She said: “My mum is poorly, I know you’re watching, I know you’re unwell but I just wanna say that I love you so much and I’m coming to see you tomorrow. She’s really not well and she’ll be tearing up watching this.”

Junior’s confession

During the emotional documentary, Junior and Princess opened up about their mum’s drug use and how she struggled to be a good mother to them during the height of it all, leaving them feeling “lonely” and unloved.

Speaking in the documentary, he said: “I remember missing her so much. This one time in particular, I was in her bed waiting for her to come back, and I woke up probably 3:30am to some loud noises, and I see her come in the room, and I’ll never forget the look on her face, she was obviously on stuff, right? I could see it in her eyes, and I was.. it scared me, because I’ve never seen my mum look like that. She’s there, but she’s not there, you know.

“She wasn’t in the right headspace, she really wasn’t. And she wasn’t being a mum, she wasn’t being the mum that I knew from when I was a little boy. The amount of love she gave me was so immense that that’s what I missed so much. Mum was on drugs, and she could not look after us, and that is the reality of it. She couldn’t.

“And then I got fed up. I clocked on that this was a very unhealthy environment, and I needed to get out. I did leave. I think I was about 14 or 15, Thank God that my dad was stable, because that’s the house that I went to and gained my sanity back, you know. While I was wishing and hoping that my mum would come back and turn herself around. It made me feel like I wasn’t good enough, because she wasn’t fixing herself for me.”

Princess also opened up about her own experiences, explaining how she wanted to stay but her mum struggled to see that.

“She’d give me a blanket, and she sprayed all her perfume on it, and that was like that was my, my attachment to Mum. So I remember after school I used to go home and just feel so like lonely in a way. I used to just cuddle to the blanket and just cry,” she explained.

“I stayed. I always wanted to be there for her, and I always wanted to show her that, like, she has me, she has us, but she didn’t understand that at the time, because she was so hooked up in her own problems.”